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Calling Myself Home

Calling Myself Home

It is a wonderful thing to feel at home with oneself. To feel safe and loved, comfy and at peace. For most of my life, I didn't know what that felt like. My inner peace always hinged on whether those around me were pleased with me, approved of me, and validated my...

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A Quieting

A Quieting

A gentle rain is falling softly and I'm looking out from the back veranda at what has been for so long an endless stretch of dry, parched ground void of any plants or grass. Now it is a sea of dark, damp earth with islands of bright green grass and wild herbs slowly...

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Restoration Points

Restoration Points

My body has decided that in these hot months, getting up at 4 am is the best idea yet. And, to be honest, I think she may be right. There is something quite magical about waking well before sunrise when our little world is dark and quiet and lusciously cool. At first...

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Oasis

Oasis

With bushfires 30 km away and the drought continuing unabated, I have found much comfort and happiness in creating an oasis on our farm. Everywhere around us is crumbling dirt, dead grass, and air filled with dust and smoke, but here, in my gardens, it is shady, cool,...

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A Good Plan for Good Land

A Good Plan for Good Land

"The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater." J.R.R. Tolkien I've been thinking about the land so much this year as...

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Courage, Dear Heart

Courage, Dear Heart

I look outside and the air is filled with smoke and dust as the wind howls across the land. I walk outside and underfoot the ground is dry and cracked, some cracks big enough to easily slide my hand into. I knock on the side of our last rainwater tank and it is barely...

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In this Upheaval, I am Safe

In this Upheaval, I am Safe

Sometimes Bear and I look back on the past 8 months and just laugh. Other times I have a good old cry and he holds me, kisses me on the forehead and says, "I know, babe." It has been dreadful. Awful. Scary. Painful. Overwhelming. Frustrating. But also, somehow, one of...

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Spring Christmas

Spring Christmas

I was cosy in bed reading this morning when I heard Bear holler from the other end of the house, "It's the first day of Spring! Time to turn on the Christmas music!" I burst out laughing and thought to myself, "He's such a good bloke." You see, dear reader, Bear...

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