I’m sitting in my office with one dog snoozing beside me and another stretching luxuriously on the veranda before she goes back to snoozing. I just finished the breakfast Bear made for me, my client work is done for the day, and now I get to sit a bit and watch the clouds roll in, dark and heavy with rain.
Today, as I acknowledge the myriad things I have no control over, I celebrate the choices I do get to make. They may be small, but they are powerful and I love them.
This week I’m waiting to see if I have cancer again.
Yesterday I had a biopsy and now, I wait, being gentle with myself as I float along the waves of fear and anxiety that inevitably come at times like this. I remind myself that I’m allowed to be scared because this is scary. I’m allowed to get a bit teary because this is hard. And then, when the waves pass, I’m allowed to hunker down into peace and find and create joy wherever I can.
This week I’m choosing to do the things that bring me joy: hanging out with Bear and our dogs, exploring nature, and reading new books that take me on vicarious adventures to Venice, Tasmania, Denmark, Ukraine, and England.
I love that even in our darkest times, we can choose goodness, choose the things that make the hard times easier to bear, and choose to let ourselves feel the yuck until we get through to peace. xo
Sending you love and prayers💕
A young Woman on America’s Got Talent. Jane “Nightbirde” Quote” “Your Cancer does not define who you are” Her self written song It’s OK is worth checking out on YouTube. Hoping your prognosis is good and you get through this latest episode and get cancer free. Lots of love.
feel the yuck until we get trough to peace… I have also thought on that these past days and was thinking that sometimes we need to zoom in on how others have handled yuck, whether it be through a movie or song or a testimony of a friend… Barb Roberts… Carol Larson… Karen Lynn… Janet Heigh…and so many others who maneuver graciously through the rough waters and come through with hope and sometimes laughter or tears. We really do not go it alone…there are so many who love us and help us get through to the peace.
Thank you for sharing your beauty and fears and hopes and aspirations, the little things and the grand… I am glad you have Bear and all of us. We love you so much. Praying even now that your whole being is on the heal…hugs dear one
my heart is with you, friend. warm thoughts & good energy sent your way. I love you
My darling Krista, you seem to be able to find some good in even the hardest times. I know life has been tough and continues to be tough. But with your optimism life is a little brighter. Which is everything. All my love and best wishes for a good outcome. Love you and all that you are x
Krista, do let us all know the results of that biopsy. You have a world of friends and cheerleaders out here waiting to celebrate your good news or wrap our arms around you from afar if the news isn’t what you want it to be. I haven’t been to your blog in a while and your new look has blown me away! Absolutely as beautiful as the woman who creates it! xxx
Thank you for sharing these rays of hope and goodness that we often forget when the going gets rough.
Sending healing vibes and thoughts that it will all work out. Love from afar!
xox
Karin
My heart goes out to you dear sweet girl. Keeping good thoughts to you.
Will be thinking of you as always 🙏
Hugs and a heavy heart, waiting alongside you. You are loved.
Krista, I have been your fan for years and have enjoyed following your journey. Wishing you peace and love during this difficult time.
Velva